I'm trying to say thank you by imstillhere117, literature
Literature
I'm trying to say thank you
You knew all along/ you knew
who i was/ what i needed/ what
i desired/.../i had no control/
all they did was yell/ you
knew/i couldn't think/ i
wanted it to end/
PERFECTION/ please/
don't cry/ i'm nothing/
invisible to you/ horrible to
them/ dead to her/it's
over/i'm better/more than
just skin and bone/ not just
a collection/SCARS/sickness
down the drain/SELF-ABUSE/
you saw it happen/ you didn't lift a finger/
it was POINTLESS/when it was
over/ FINISHED/ you were
there/ everything i'd done/
your lack of trust/LOVE/i'm
still the same/ back to the norm/
FORGIVENESS/ present/.../
you were still
HERE.
sometimes i wish everyone would just go away,
i'm sick of thinking,
sick of being,
sick of loving.
All I want is to be loved.
All i want is to not be yelled at.
I'm sorry i want to make him happy,
but i care.
I care about him so f***ing much,
but all we do is argue.
I want him,
and only him.
I've never been so confused in my life.
But he should just stay away.
They all should just stay away.
I'm sorry i hurt you.
I'm sorry i can't be perfect,
but i don't know who the F*** i am anymore....
just make me disappear.
*powerless/i cry/broken/
i can never be fixed/scarred/
definitely.....
*she hates/she screams/she cries/
she kicks/she cuts/
she bleeds...
*sick/ i am/loved/without
a doubt/attention/
i've got it....
*but what went wrong/she wonders/
i'm only to blame/she
decides/i hurt them/she realizes/
my friends/she sighs/
my family/ her tears can't be
stopped/i hurt the ones i love/
she knows she's right.
Tears,
I cry,
And blood,
It falls,
You,
You yell,
And me,
I argue,
Them,
They look,
And us,
We hide,
Rain,
It pours,
And heat,
It absorbs,
Arms,
Mine hug,
And yours,
They love.
not seeing,
not looking,
not feeling,
not loving,
not crying,
not being...
non-existant is feeling,
and pain is a place,
you can escape the pain,
you can leave a place,
run away, be gone,
be non-existant.
you can't escape feeling.
Taina looks,
because she is all alone,
peering through the door,
the tears fall,
moonlight shimmers through the window,
reflecting on the dust,
snow-like flecks,
empty boxes,
abandoned house,
Taina can't believe,
she's in denial,
she misses the riches,
the gold,
and her family.
Taina glances down,
looks at her clothes,
dirty and mated,
from rags to riches,
"Princess Taina,
we love you."
But that wasn't good enough,
she had to leave,
so.....
peering through the door,
she sees...nothing.
Go Away and Stay There by imstillhere117, literature
Literature
Go Away and Stay There
Disappear
Get out of my life
Turn your back
Diss on me
Hate me
I can't look at you
I won't think about you
Crying's not an option
Talking's not an option
You are gone
Your feelings are gone
Don't say you care
Don't pretend to be my friend
Go away
Leave
Disappear
Get out of my life
And stay there
Forever.
Alone/she screams/with everyone there/
staring/wanting to help/trying to fix what's
not yet broken/yelling in rage/crying in agony/
she wants to be disapear/she wants to be
invisible/she wants to be loved/they want her
there/they do love her/she is their everything/
thier center/their diamond in the mud.
Cold
**
I'm lost forever
**
And you
**
You're gone
*********
********
******
****
**
Solitude, my result
**
Lust, my desire
**
Alone, my location
**
And you?
**
You're gone.
Save me tomorrow,
But leave me today,
Just give me a chance,
Don't send me away.
You don't really know me,
You just act like you do,
Love me for me,
That's all I can give you.
I don't want to chage,
Just give me one day,
Save me tomorrow,
But leave me today.
Spiders,
They're everywhere,
Placing delicate webs of silk.
*************
Crawling up my spine,
Wriggling btween me toes,
And invading my hair.
**************
Retreating from your back,
Releasing off your toes,
And falling out of your hair.
**************
We share something special,
You and I do,
A bond made of webs.
**************
If we be real careful,
And move real slow,
Then our friendship won't break.
Cold
**
I'm lost forever
**
And you
**
You're gone
*********
********
******
****
**
Solitude, my result
**
Lust, my desire
**
Alone, my location
**
And you?
**
You're gone.
Alone/she screams/with everyone there/
staring/wanting to help/trying to fix what's
not yet broken/yelling in rage/crying in agony/
she wants to be disapear/she wants to be
invisible/she wants to be loved/they want her
there/they do love her/she is their everything/
thier center/their diamond in the mud.
Go Away and Stay There by imstillhere117, literature
Literature
Go Away and Stay There
Disappear
Get out of my life
Turn your back
Diss on me
Hate me
I can't look at you
I won't think about you
Crying's not an option
Talking's not an option
You are gone
Your feelings are gone
Don't say you care
Don't pretend to be my friend
Go away
Leave
Disappear
Get out of my life
And stay there
Forever.
Taina looks,
because she is all alone,
peering through the door,
the tears fall,
moonlight shimmers through the window,
reflecting on the dust,
snow-like flecks,
empty boxes,
abandoned house,
Taina can't believe,
she's in denial,
she misses the riches,
the gold,
and her family.
Taina glances down,
looks at her clothes,
dirty and mated,
from rags to riches,
"Princess Taina,
we love you."
But that wasn't good enough,
she had to leave,
so.....
peering through the door,
she sees...nothing.
not seeing,
not looking,
not feeling,
not loving,
not crying,
not being...
non-existant is feeling,
and pain is a place,
you can escape the pain,
you can leave a place,
run away, be gone,
be non-existant.
you can't escape feeling.
Tears,
I cry,
And blood,
It falls,
You,
You yell,
And me,
I argue,
Them,
They look,
And us,
We hide,
Rain,
It pours,
And heat,
It absorbs,
Arms,
Mine hug,
And yours,
They love.
*powerless/i cry/broken/
i can never be fixed/scarred/
definitely.....
*she hates/she screams/she cries/
she kicks/she cuts/
she bleeds...
*sick/ i am/loved/without
a doubt/attention/
i've got it....
*but what went wrong/she wonders/
i'm only to blame/she
decides/i hurt them/she realizes/
my friends/she sighs/
my family/ her tears can't be
stopped/i hurt the ones i love/
she knows she's right.
sometimes i wish everyone would just go away,
i'm sick of thinking,
sick of being,
sick of loving.
All I want is to be loved.
All i want is to not be yelled at.
I'm sorry i want to make him happy,
but i care.
I care about him so f***ing much,
but all we do is argue.
I want him,
and only him.
I've never been so confused in my life.
But he should just stay away.
They all should just stay away.
I'm sorry i hurt you.
I'm sorry i can't be perfect,
but i don't know who the F*** i am anymore....
just make me disappear.
a mess
tangled up in your hair.
tied in knots
fingers intertwined.
oh how you held me
as if i was slipping through your grasp.
and how you stared at me
as if your world was in my eyes.
the way you brushed my cheek
and made me blush a sweet color of fury.
how much closer i feel to you
after be clutched in your arms so tightly.
and yet still,
all i can think about is the way you kiss.
I don't want to miss you
but I do
I miss your warmth
your wide white smile
the one you used
to change who I saw you to be
But I guess I was deceived
because you're not that guy
I'm kiss-less, restless, smile-less,
loveless
without you
I hate it
I hate you
not really
but I can try.
Annimation Of The Soul by i-love-colton, literature
Literature
Annimation Of The Soul
I want to be animated
flaws can be erased
perfection inside and out
others tell you what to think and say
I want to be imaginary
invisible to all
only those who want me can see
true friends who actually care
I want to be a soap opera star
so much drama everyday
things always turn out okay
there would be nothing to fear
I want to be a mirror
seeing everyone for who they are
no more lies, no more make-up
no curtain to hide behind
I want to be animated
adored by all
no one to hate me
I don't want to be real
Go on and check me
my arms are all yours
make sure I've been the good little girl
the one everyone adores
my mind is clouded and I know that
I guess you know that too
everything I seem to say
you take it as a clue
some things just happen,
it's not a sign
but no one will leave me alone
give back the life that used to be mine
I'm not that sick
just a little bent
release your grip on my lungs
let me try to vent
my lips are locked
the key is gone
am I to be punished
for something I haven't done?
srying and screaming
they have no use
"How long have you
been with this abuse?"
I can't answer
for what youy say can't be real
How I love our
sensitive minds
easily drove into
crying eyes
freely attempting to
act on sighs
to freakishly screams of
terrible times
Insanity
The answer to humanity
the codes to our cradling graves
the tribute to our horrendous gaze
Insanity
Our lovely times of
painless scratching
the cruel feeling of
emotional distraction
the epics on stories of
poetic reality
Insanity
Grazing beauty of
disgusting darkness
groups of followers to
satanic worshipers
leading our children to
tempting murder
Insanity
Our measure for
desperation
a yearning for
bloody grazings
a month to years of
psychologal transactions
How I lov
The Path Of Resentment... by i-love-colton, literature
Literature
The Path Of Resentment...
Anger's wheling
deep inside
tears are falling,
while I try to hide
I HATE YOU
and I always have
why can't you go away?
why do you make me so mad?
I want to kick,
I want to scream,
I want to run,
is this just a dream?
I want to leave,
escape this place
so I can be happy
and show my true face
My last breath
will be taken here
if you don't let me go
to face your fear
I won't get hurt,
I'm wise enough
I won't get lost,
I'm just as tough
don't you get it?
I"m not a little kid
so let me out one my own
so I'll have a chance to live
holding me back
I want to give up
some days are rough
I should just give up
who cares w
A beacon of Hope in my heart by Pimpette22, literature
Literature
A beacon of Hope in my heart
Sometimes I wake up
in the middle of the night
to look out my window
to gaze at the stars
every twinkle that I see
reminds me of your eyes
how every time they look at me
they radiate pure love
the brightest ones make me think
about our undying love
and how it is like that star
constant and unfading
and how also like the star
no matter where you are
it is always there
it continues on
never to die away
then I think about the future
how wonderful it shall be
because no matter what
my soul tells me we will be together
because our love is brighter than any star
it is a beacon of hope in my heart
that will always l
Save me tomorrow,
But leave me today,
Just give me a chance,
Don't send me away.
You don't really know me,
You just act like you do,
Love me for me,
That's all I can give you.
I don't want to chage,
Just give me one day,
Save me tomorrow,
But leave me today.
So....
It's been forever since i was on here...
wow...
i guess i miss this whole scene, but i'm so different now...my whole set of mind.
i dont feel sick like i used to, i mean sure, i get depressed, but it's different. I've been through so much...wow.
I really don't know how I feel... I think I'm hurt, but i'm not sure. The worst part is, I can't talk about it. Nobody said i couldn't, but i can't make myself. F*** him. That's all i can say. I'm over it. I can't be mad at him anymore. I can never stay mad at him. There's just somethin about him....
Thanks for the sweet comment You've got budding skill too! Keep up with the pen, writing can take you places nothing else can.. I hope you feel better soon too (I read your journal entry). If you ever need someone to talk to, note me or IM me: funkyfresh503.